TIME

Its been a long time since I have posted.   

Life has been in the way

This summer is the third summer in a row I have had surgery, I had a hysterectomy July 9 

Compared to foot surgery it has been a breeze. 

But wow what an emotional (hormones I guess) one this was.

I am happy to be past all of these

These surgeries have taught me so much!!!!

We are all too busy,  how are we using our extra time, time away from work, time after all the chores are done. 

Down time is an awakening, it has been a realization for me that all my struggles in life have been through some hard work and lots of courage, and my handful of real people who love me its what I will live for from now on.

My very best friend is a great time user. He fills his time up and fits in all the things he wants to do and does well, he is an inspiration to me to begin AGAIN a new way of living.

I am now on a mission to add some things to my life. 

Exercise is the main one, and since Dr. said I'll  never run a marathon, I am gonna walk and walk and walk. 

Also using TIME for good things for me and my family.

I have learned through these surgeries with so much TIME on my hands that I and I am sure others too, do not use our TIME to its fullest 

When I say this it does not mean we are not busy, this world is so busy

But what about walking, running, reading, doing things that bring us peace of mind, I know I am guilty of wasting time.  

I can not get it back 

So my pledge to myself is to think before I waste time and use it to its fullest 

I going to take more time for peace of mind, for living and pushing myself to do the things I put off, and that will make my life more interesting to me. That is living!

 

Now I am going to delete Candy Crush and I will have time for all the things that will help me live and use my TIME.  

I'm Sorry

Well, I started this blogging thingy so that I would be able to have something to do while healing from  my upcoming surgery. Which was postponed from July 6th which is today,  until August 15th.  The lovely scheduler lady made a mistake.  MISTAKE which she did not apologize for.  Maybe if she knew how much pain I have been in she would have been a little apologetic, or the fact that by August 15th my cast would have been off, or the fact that we had 11 weddings the week of my original surgery date and rearranged SO many things to get the work done, or the fact that I had a chest exray, blood work, ekg and Dr. visit that is supposedly only good for 30 days or the fact that after the left foot is healing I need to have the right foot done.  Maybe "I am so sorry" would have made me not want to find her and step on her feet until she cried. JUST MAYBE
Everyone makes mistakes but when you are scheduling surgery its a pretty big deal.  After all you don't get operated on like its a routine dental visit.   Not only did she not apologize she was mean..... I don't get it.

To Love

There are so many different kinds of love.  To love unconditionally would be the ultimate. Most can not do this.  I try and of course I do not always succeed.  To me there are so many reasons to strive for this.  Each person we are connected to in whatever way, family, friend, coworker, etc. gives us something.  Something to learn, something to live by or not, something to laugh about or cry to. Something to think about, something to look at, something to realize like you just got smacked in the face.  No one is perfect but everyone offers something interesting.  I have lived for almost 53 years and I am still learning from others everyday, although I wish I could teach others about there foolishness, I can not always find a way to do that.  Nothing in this world is perfect and those who live expecting it should be,  are usually very sour.  A very important person who influenced my life used to say "Don't throw the baby out with the bath water"  I think too many people do exactly that with relationships.  I have had relationships that could not be saved but I held on tight until I knew for sure it was best to let it go. There are relationships that should never be thrown down the drain so to speak, those relationships to me are family and friends, true friends, no matter the problem unless in the case of physical or mental abuse these relationships are who we are, they have molded us and given us joy, sadness, love, comfort, angst, laughter and tears.  They are golden and should be treated as such, maybe needing some polishing but always of great value.